thoughts to devour.
 
Over and Over
A Review of Passing for Normal: A Memoir of Compulsion by Amy Wilensky
You are reading my review of this book, and as you read, you
read every word, because that’s the only way to fully understand what this
review is about. However, Amy Wilensky could only read every sixth word in
this paper, six times. This compulsion, and the many others that she had
developed, affected every aspect of her everyday life. Passing for Normal
is a memoir of the author’s experience with OCD and Tourette’s. At a young
age Amy realized that the compulsions and twitches she did wasn’t her
fault. She says, “I know more than ever how unconnected the ritual is with
anything at all, let alone my personal safety or happiness or success”
(Wilensky 91). When she figured this out, she understood that nothing was
wrong with her; rather, something was affecting her. Even though it takes
her many years to find out she has OCD and Tourette’s, this quote
foreshadows Amy’s drive to find out what’s wrong with her. For a long time,
Wilensky’s ‘tics’ proved to be a catharsis and helped to placate her when
she felt stressed or angry. Her friends thought these ‘tics’ added to her
panache, thinking she was just a quirky little girl. She finally learns
that she has these diseases as a young adult, she receives treatment and
feels liberated enough to really live her life.
Just as Wilensky moved on in her life, one of my goals is to move on
in mine. Her success, in getting treatment gave her happiness and a feeling
of security. My goal- of getting a job- will also give me happiness and a
feeling of security. Some obstacles I know I will face are my age, and
school, which will only allow me to work for the summer. From the book, I
know that I can overcome these simple obstacles, if I also find a friend my
age who has a job, or is looking, can help me with my goal. In the book,
Wilensky meets Bryant in college; he also has OCD and Tourette’s. They
become congenial friends, and help eachother with getting treatment for
their diseases. Getting a job makes me a little trepid, but another section
of this book inspires me not to be afraid, when Amy goes to her first TSA
meeting. She thought it would be full of crazy people, until she recognized
a movie producer at the meeting, she said, “I was surprised and secretly
comforted to find Lowell mingling with the like of us” (Wilensky 28). This
sighting of a successful person helps Wilensky understand that OCD and
Tourette’s doesn’t have to completely hinder her life.
This book was very interesting; the structure was in chronological
order, the chapters’ dividing up different events of Wilensky’s life until
she received treatment for her diseases. The beginning and end of the book
connects in that they compare with eachother. You can see from the
beginning how bad Wilensky’s compulsions were, and at the end, how she got
treatment for hers, and even her father, I laud the book for its vivid
descriptions, it was also a very cogent book; it used a lot of large words.
However, there were some weaknesses, it was verbose, and many ideas were
restated.
I also like the facts that were included in this book, one of which
stated that the British Medical Journal believed that Mozart may have had
Tourette’s, he was often seen leaping, twirling, and he loved nonsense
words. Howard Hughes, a famous Hollywood producer, who produced Scarface
and Hell’s Angels, was afraid of germs for most of his life, and wouldn’t
touch anything.
In conclusion, this book was very inspiring. People should care
because a person with OCD and Tourette’s was able to sit down and write a
book. This really inspires me, considering how crippling these diseases can
be. I would recommend this book to some of my friends, because I know it
would inspire them too. In lieu to the first sentence of my review, I’m
sure that Wilensky would be able to read every word of this essay, and
she’d be proud.
 
Imagine you are in class, and you are listening to the teacher. While you are taking notes, you hear one of your classmates scream obscenities across the room, and when you look up, you notice other classmates twitching and contorting involuntarily. All the while, your teacher keeps talking, like nothing ever happened. This is how Amy’s first meeting went for people who suffered from OCD and Tourette syndrome.  The biggest difference is that Amy’s meeting was a catharsis for her, to be around people just like her, seeing how some lived normal lives, with good jobs; while others have a hard time accepting themselves. The book describes Amy’s disease in a new way, she came to understand her ‘tics’ weren’t normal, and the worse the got, the harder it became to hide from her family- especially her father, who looked at her in disgust when she had an episode- and friends.

In my opinion, this book is more interesting than I thought it would be. I like how descriptive Wilensky is, even when describing the most diminutive things. The book also gives an insight into OCD and Tourettes, diseases that aren’t very common. The only thing I don’t like, is how her father treated her when she had an episode, instead of trying to help, he called her crazy, imitated her and even sent her looks of disgust.

So far, the book is exploring Amy’s adventure to accept who she is. After the first meeting, where she meet a filmmaker and a doctor, she understands that she doesn’t have to hide, and that she shouldn’t be ashamed, because it’s not her fault that she has this disease. I think a proper theme to describe this is don’t be concerned with what other people say or think about you. An example, is how inspired she became when she learned that the filmmaker at the meeting didn’t hide like she did, he went out and pursued his dream. She had even seen one of his documentaries, and was surprised to see him among other OCD sufferers.

I think that I will enjoy the rest of this book, not only because it is different, but its inspiring in its own way; teaching people to accept who they are, but not to be hindered by it, but instead, work around it and pursue your dreams.

 
 
Ode to Wine- Pablo Neruda

            Summary: This poem is about a woman that Neruda thought is beautiful. In my opinion, this is really a comparison of the beauty of wine to the beauty of a woman,

            Shifts: There is a shift in the poem when Neruda stops describing wine, and starts comparing the woman to the wine.

            Title: The title is “Ode to Wine’, but I think its really an ode to a woman.

            Theme: The theme is about beauty being abundant in everything.

            Imagery: The whole poem is an extended metaphor, comparing a woman to a bottle of wine. “Wine stirs the spring” This is an example of personification because wine cannot stir. “& your navel is a chaste seal stamped on the vessel of your belly.” This is a metaphor comparing the woman’s belly button to the label on a bottle of wine.

            Conflict: I don’t think there are any conflicts.

            Connotation: I also didn’t find any connotations.
 

           

          The movie that we watched in class, called “Il Postino” (The Postman) is about a poor man living in Italy, who gets a job delivering mail to a famous poet, Pablo Neruda, during his exile. The postman, Mario, is very excited to meet the poet, and though the Neruda and Mario are rigged with eachother in beginning, their relationship grows into a beautiful friendship. In the beginning of the movie, it was very slow, quiet, not much excitement. It was important however, because it set up Mario’s situation, letting the audience know what his life was like and what his father thought of him. Overall, I think the movie was pleasant, I think the general theme was that you can do whatever you want if you set your mind to it. I really enjoyed seeing the characters saying that they couldn’t do something, or thought something was evil, but ended up doing it anyway without even knowing it. The only thing I disliked was how Neruda totally forgot about Mario at the end of the movie, and didn’t come back until Mario died.

            During the movie, one can observe a lot of details about social class during this time. One of the major conflicts in the movie was the man running for governor. During the movie, we see that people who could read and write had a major influence, and illiterate people in the city followed whatever literate people said, instead of thinking for themselves. Mario knew the candidate wouldn’t give any of the things that he was promising, but never voiced his opinion until he started talking to Neruda, who is literate and a big influence on people even today. I think the theme that describes this best is voice your own opinion and not the opinions of others. An example would be when Mario tells the candidate that if he becomes governor, “all of the work will halt”, and that everyone knew it. After he said that, everyone in the restaurant grunted in unison, agreeing to what Mario had said. No one had done it before, even though they all know it was the truth.

            There are many forms of love in the movie also. The one that is most evident is the love between Mario and Beatrice. At first, Mario has nothing but pure lust for Beatrice, and interprets it as love. However, as time went on and they get to know eachother the two fall deeply in love. Mario depended completely on Neruda’s poetry to win Beatrice over, and it worked. So I think a theme suitable for this is that words are powerful enough to provoke love. Some evidence of this is that when Beatrice’s mother found out about the poem, she immediately chastised Beatrice, thinking that she had let Mario see her naked, because of his eloquence with words.

            Poetry is heavily featured in the movie; and there are many things to say about what the movie says about poetry, but I think the largest message was that everyone doesn’t understand poetry. Mario, for instance, didn’t think he could be a poet because he was a simple man, whose father was a fisherman and his father’s father and so on. Neruda, however, showed Mario that anyone could be anything if they put their mind to it. One example is the metaphors that Mario makes throughout the movie, even though he insists that he can’t. Even Beatrice’s mother makes metaphors while she claims that poetry is evil and wrong. Everyone is a poet in some way, and everything that someone says can be interpreted as poetry. People don’t realize that the little things they say can affect and inspire people in different ways. That is what I think poetry is, and in the movie, it seems like the people in the town thought poetry was supposed to be pretty and it had to rhyme and it you had to understand it. I think a theme to describe this is that no one can totally understand the meaning behind a poem, unless you wrote it. Because everyone can get a different feeling or meaning from a poem. I think the scene from the movie that best fits this theme is when Mario asks Neruda to explain one of his poems, but he tells him that he can’t because then it would lose its meaning.